here it goes

our fren is now ATTACHED...congrats baby girl....
it is awkward when i imagine you holding hand with him...
hahaa...
but hey....u started...i'm proud of you....
i'm so happy for you...really...

few months ago you were touching him through the computer screen.,...
and now...he's yours....
i want to meet him.....and 'body check' him...
heheee....
no worries...i wont hurt him....
u be good girl and dont do wai wai thing to him ar...
not evryguy can take your craziness k??
i feel like a mother right now....
ishhh isshhhh....
be happy k???

love, JOANNE~~

I MISS YOU!!!!

my dear blog....
suddenly miss u bcause i got nothing to do right now...
waiting for my class to start><
i miss u ppl in aussie....
i miss u ppl who drown in the sea of assignments and examinations....
i miss u....islands and beaches....
i miss u...stick that has something smoky flowing around u....
i miss u....my 5 yr-old phone...

i'm boring....
will be very busy not long later....
still waiting for the time to come....
no longer alone anymore....:)

boring~~

waiting for 'the boss' pineapple mike...
alone in the lab...surfing evrything that i concerned about and even don care about....
since when i blog again....
just thought they know everything about me through facebook, msn or even more personal..twitter....
not much feeling i have here...
just thought someone could've not tell me things that i dont wanna know(don dare)...

been wondering since when i care about diet....
been wondering since when i care about healthy lifestyle....
mom was right....
depend on who are you doing this with....
ya 4 of u...
my motivation....

friday eating night...
saturday healthy day...
= like thats gonna work.,...
anyways...
its great that young people like us have this kinda thoughts...
keeping ourselves healthy and happy....
ya i'm happy,....
so pls don ruin our relationship....
appreciate me and...our relationship....
i love u all with all my hearts....
peace....xoxo

TNT

this saturday is gonna be a big day for the mah's family...
granny's going on 80 this year...
i will only wish that she's happy and healthy as always...
her smile..always melts mine and my sisters' hearts...
warm is the only word i can describe...
since this day means alot to us (my dad's part of the family, excluded his siblings, but including my aunt who is living with us)...
we wanted it to be the most remembering day in our life...
we planned and thought of alot of ideas to make that day works...
my dad especially...
he puts alot of efforts, time, heart as well as MONEY to this...
just to make it work...

and he was thinking of using this opportunity to fix the relationship between his brother and him...

BUT...
that mother fucker....
he has gone too far....
my dad's brother who we call him 'ah pek'.....
he fucking thinks that we owed him or something...
listen here fucker...
if it wasnt for my dad....
u'll be sleeping in a hut with 4 of ur useless sons...

i dont hate ur wife, in the other hand..
i pity her...she's quite a good lady...
i dont even know why she chose you in the first place...
you fat ass sucker...

i'm so sorry, readers...
i've been holding back but...
pls just let me spit it out...

my dad is trying to fix the problem and you mother fucker fat pervert is trying to fool him with ur stupid brainless unwanted trash talk...
fucker, why are you here in this world anyway...
i pay my respect as you are my elder and for not stepping on any of my hair....
but ignoring my dad?this is worse....

let me tell you something....
we will support daddy no matter what.....
we are living with him and so....
we can see what he's doing and what he has done for the mah's....
u???better watch ur kids....
i'm looking forward to see what will they become without my father...
no this is not a curse...
its just a mother fucking statement...
and thanks to you....
i will try my very very best to be wealthier than ur family...
wait and see...

madness,
joleng

back to school...~

final year....
those words make me feel...heavy and dizzy....
obviously is not gonna be a relax year for me....
just wish that i can smoothly pass everything....
theory....for me?yuks....
i only know practical...
like...presentation or project...
essay?fuck off...

anyways...
today was the 1st day of school...
cool...
2 hours class...nice
evryday 8 am....no kidding...
evryday....

went to the lake campus for a peek...
seriously...
no kidding.,...
looking forward to move there....
unfortunately...the communication students are the last batch to move...
way to go taylors...

those who are here for personal stuff...
sorry to dissapoint you...
no update...
ya.....LAME...

joleng

Tired of....

maybe i'm too free...nothing to do...

so....'ve been thinking a lot....

evry night before sleep....think...

evry morning after sleep...think....

nvr felt this way before...this is my 1st time...and hopefully will be the last....

tired of wondering...

tired of imagining....

tired of dreaming....

sooo dam stupid just to think about this...



've been thinking whether i should go on with some1 i'm not interested with...

or....keep wondering if he has the same feeling...

tired...but this kinda thing is outta my control....

if onli i control not thinking about him...

not have feeling for him...

if only we didn start....

and now i'm the only one who is suffering...

felt so defeated....
fuck that feeling...
u win...

Iniative...

sometimes i wish to be like Candy...
initiative and never let go any chances...way to go babe..

not sooo Exciting Excitements...

its kinda hard for me to type now...

curz i just had my nails done...jelly nails....long and beautiful but...

cant do anything..curz i afraid that my nails might peel off....^^

i'd finished being my fren- vicky li's hair model....

very tough..i must tell you..

sitting there letting her fix ur hair....argh...

not good at all....

but the good thing is...she did a great job and got 2nd runner up...

not bad at all right???

the make up was from my sis- kelly....

i don have face make up pics with me at the moment....

will show you if i had it...

i'll be busy these 2 days...

cousins' wedding...

ya....cousinS'.....

both of cousins are having their wedding tml night....

need to dress up and shopping...

wanted to shopping sooo badly but...

no time and no ppl acc....

evry1 seems to be quite busy lately...

or am i the onli persn who is extremely free??

who cares...

Happy NewS~~

2nd day of 2010....
nothing new happened..
well...i guess i hve to wait then.....

i think i'm running out of mahjong luck...
gotta do something about it....
anyways...thats not a big deal...

i've grounded myself these few days....
hope there will be no mushroom coming out from my body^^

i;ve promise bobo to acc her to somewhere this 31 december since she;s quite upset that we didn go out with her last year...
so sorry about that...
i thought in new year staying at home is more appropriate....

i was thinking bout a lot of things while rotting at home...
things that shouldn be bothering me....
like frens and family...
i bet evry1 thought that i have a lot of frens...
well...
i admit i really do have a lot of frens...
but you know...
the feeling was not as strong as last time....
i remembered sying that i love my frens....
but now....
blurred....
is it me or...
my frens are not that interested in me anymore...
interested means that they dont really care what life i'm having....means dont care anymore la...
maybe i think too much...i dont know....
i'm not that kinda ppl who willing to speaks out how i feel...
but since i have a blog...
i should tell my blog instead...
sigh~~~
i dont knw anymore....
is this the sign telling me to go hang out with some other gang...
or is this the sign telling me that i have a problem in maintaining frenship...
i know this sounds odd...
but seriously...
things are getting worse now.....
can anybody tell me whats going on..?

anyways....
about family.....
if you were close to me...
i think i;ve told you that something happened....
someone betrayed my dad....
i won tell you who...curz...they were very close to me....
dad said....
once a person grew up...their mind will change.....
family relationship might not be the main factor he or she been thinking about...
maybe i'm not grown up....
i dont think anything can change the relationship between me and my family...
even MONEY...
this is a very powerful thing....
ppl said..money cant but love....
but...money bought the heart of those ppl who used to close with us....
my dad started to worry about his own daughters....
i said to him...dont compare us with them....
we wont do anything to betray my own family...
how could i?

ppl tell me all the time...
'i wish i am you...no worries...no stress...just relax and happy ...'
i will answer them....
'i have to worry about why am i not worrying about anything...thats not normal....'

lastly...
i still love you guys...
A LOT!!!
xoxo
joanne~~