Tired of....

maybe i'm too free...nothing to do...

so....'ve been thinking a lot....

evry night before sleep....think...

evry morning after sleep...think....

nvr felt this way before...this is my 1st time...and hopefully will be the last....

tired of wondering...

tired of imagining....

tired of dreaming....

sooo dam stupid just to think about this...



've been thinking whether i should go on with some1 i'm not interested with...

or....keep wondering if he has the same feeling...

tired...but this kinda thing is outta my control....

if onli i control not thinking about him...

not have feeling for him...

if only we didn start....

and now i'm the only one who is suffering...

felt so defeated....
fuck that feeling...
u win...

Iniative...

sometimes i wish to be like Candy...
initiative and never let go any chances...way to go babe..

not sooo Exciting Excitements...

its kinda hard for me to type now...

curz i just had my nails done...jelly nails....long and beautiful but...

cant do anything..curz i afraid that my nails might peel off....^^

i'd finished being my fren- vicky li's hair model....

very tough..i must tell you..

sitting there letting her fix ur hair....argh...

not good at all....

but the good thing is...she did a great job and got 2nd runner up...

not bad at all right???

the make up was from my sis- kelly....

i don have face make up pics with me at the moment....

will show you if i had it...

i'll be busy these 2 days...

cousins' wedding...

ya....cousinS'.....

both of cousins are having their wedding tml night....

need to dress up and shopping...

wanted to shopping sooo badly but...

no time and no ppl acc....

evry1 seems to be quite busy lately...

or am i the onli persn who is extremely free??

who cares...

Happy NewS~~

2nd day of 2010....
nothing new happened..
well...i guess i hve to wait then.....

i think i'm running out of mahjong luck...
gotta do something about it....
anyways...thats not a big deal...

i've grounded myself these few days....
hope there will be no mushroom coming out from my body^^

i;ve promise bobo to acc her to somewhere this 31 december since she;s quite upset that we didn go out with her last year...
so sorry about that...
i thought in new year staying at home is more appropriate....

i was thinking bout a lot of things while rotting at home...
things that shouldn be bothering me....
like frens and family...
i bet evry1 thought that i have a lot of frens...
well...
i admit i really do have a lot of frens...
but you know...
the feeling was not as strong as last time....
i remembered sying that i love my frens....
but now....
blurred....
is it me or...
my frens are not that interested in me anymore...
interested means that they dont really care what life i'm having....means dont care anymore la...
maybe i think too much...i dont know....
i'm not that kinda ppl who willing to speaks out how i feel...
but since i have a blog...
i should tell my blog instead...
sigh~~~
i dont knw anymore....
is this the sign telling me to go hang out with some other gang...
or is this the sign telling me that i have a problem in maintaining frenship...
i know this sounds odd...
but seriously...
things are getting worse now.....
can anybody tell me whats going on..?

anyways....
about family.....
if you were close to me...
i think i;ve told you that something happened....
someone betrayed my dad....
i won tell you who...curz...they were very close to me....
dad said....
once a person grew up...their mind will change.....
family relationship might not be the main factor he or she been thinking about...
maybe i'm not grown up....
i dont think anything can change the relationship between me and my family...
even MONEY...
this is a very powerful thing....
ppl said..money cant but love....
but...money bought the heart of those ppl who used to close with us....
my dad started to worry about his own daughters....
i said to him...dont compare us with them....
we wont do anything to betray my own family...
how could i?

ppl tell me all the time...
'i wish i am you...no worries...no stress...just relax and happy ...'
i will answer them....
'i have to worry about why am i not worrying about anything...thats not normal....'

lastly...
i still love you guys...
A LOT!!!
xoxo
joanne~~

Warming christmas~~

christmas' over...sad right?
this year was different...
we didnt celebrate with alot of ppl like last year...
but...i enjoyed it better...
we cooked and rot and drink...crazy...

Eating~~~
bobo, candy, shian and bear came about 7-8 something pm...
then bobo, shian and i started preparing the dishes as the other 2 went upstairs reserving the room...

that was fun in a way that we didn really bought the cooked stuff to celebrate...
we actually d.i.y the dishes...if you know what i mean...
then, dont know what time...
the dinner was served...
summon both of them down and started our very own christmas dinner...
since we are all buddhist...we dont have to say grace..hehe
just when we started to dig in...
bear upsetly said that, 'what a pity christmas, so cham...'
i was like what the fuck....
i definitely know what he meant...
just because e them were not here doesnt mean that the dinner suck...
we still have each other thats why...
well...obviously he thinks a party which has his friends will be better...
i dont think so...
not like they are not fun is just that...
we still can have our own fun right....?
anyways,...we continue with our dinner happily...at least we are happy..the we not included bear la...
curz he said he's not happy...
carry on....
neal arrived after we finished our spaghetti....

Singing~~~
all classic and english songs...

as usual...candy and i were the entertainer for the day...

while we were singing...

bobo and shian dissapear....

they were not in the room...

oh well...

we continued anyways....

then...moments later...

they came back...

still candy and i continued...

moments later....

e called....

i went down and opened the door for the royals...= =

and went up again....

before they were here...

bear was asleep...

just when they arrived...

he woke up...

coincidence..!!!

anyways...

continue singing...bla bla...

then.....

e them leaving again....

i opened the door for them again...

and went up again...

now the fun part...

Drinking...for some1...eating~~~

we started playing game...

i taught them few days ago....haha

by the way the fun part was not the part when we're drinking...

it was when neal eating,...

he ate almost the whole plate of nuggets and fried chickens...and a whole bottle of water....

ahahaaa....since he said he mustn touch alcohol...

we gave him choices...

2 sec liquor...10 sec water...or one piece of fried chicken...

firstly he chose fried chicken...

siad that...not bad delicious...

and so you know.....

according to bear's skill..

he lost almost every turn...

until he almost finish the fried chickens...

we decided to change the punishment...

at that time...candy and i were tipsy...abit drunk alr...

dont know which idiot...

came up with an idea of posting something on the wall of facebook...

since facebook is sooo powerful....

and since i was drunk...

i immediately said...

go ahead ....

no fear....

in the end...

evry one of us lost at least one time...

only bobo and i lost twice...

if you wanna know what we posted...check them out on facebook...

nvm folks...

i have made it clear on facebook...

nobody will get harmed....

My friends left..here comes Kwan's...

as i was saying....i was a bit drunk before bear them left....

then...here comes the all so smart Justin Teh who is currently my sis' bf...

he was so proud that he down both of my sisters and he swore that he will down me as well...

for your information...not to show off...

but its true...

i'm quite good at drinking....

this was the 1st time...so dam drunk...kao kao....

he down me for 5 sec with my liquor...their 5 sec was llike 10 sec ?

and so...i dare them and down....

then...i still can walk and talk and dance...

he came again...and now...

with red wine....

2 diff alcohol mix...wtf...

more than half glass....

i refused at first...

but then...

he dared me...saying that i'm scared....

f***...of curz i'm not....

again....i kena.....

after that glass....

i seriously don feel soo good....

puke like crazy...hate it.....

then went back to the room again...

this time...not soo goood anymore....

they asked me whether i'm drunk...

for a normal person...

of curz i deny...

but moments later....

i didnt know when but i just went back to my rooom..and...DIE....

thats all for the christmas eve.....

nothign interesting happened on christmas...

just a little chit chat with the girls....

bye ...

oo...and happy birthday wang wang....muax

xoxo

joanne

Finally~~

since chyn asked me to start blogging, so here i am...

remember i told her that i dont really know myself neither...
i started my blog in msn space, those blogs were all about my life and, i didn really include my personal problems...

by the way, the misuderstood had been solved my both of us...
sorry chyn...again...i was confused..haha
since the problem is solved...
let's just continue being 'unpolluted' shall we?

see?
thats why itold you i dont know how to blog...
you guys can write about alot of things...
but now i'm outta word...aaiks...

christmas is coming, planning to have a little house party, since we might be too stupid to go out at christmas...
hope to see you guys soon....

i have problem uploading beautiful pics...
sooo...
my blog might be boring in a way...
hope you dont mind...
newbie here...

joanne<3