Happy NewS~~

2nd day of 2010....
nothing new happened..
well...i guess i hve to wait then.....

i think i'm running out of mahjong luck...
gotta do something about it....
anyways...thats not a big deal...

i've grounded myself these few days....
hope there will be no mushroom coming out from my body^^

i;ve promise bobo to acc her to somewhere this 31 december since she;s quite upset that we didn go out with her last year...
so sorry about that...
i thought in new year staying at home is more appropriate....

i was thinking bout a lot of things while rotting at home...
things that shouldn be bothering me....
like frens and family...
i bet evry1 thought that i have a lot of frens...
well...
i admit i really do have a lot of frens...
but you know...
the feeling was not as strong as last time....
i remembered sying that i love my frens....
but now....
blurred....
is it me or...
my frens are not that interested in me anymore...
interested means that they dont really care what life i'm having....means dont care anymore la...
maybe i think too much...i dont know....
i'm not that kinda ppl who willing to speaks out how i feel...
but since i have a blog...
i should tell my blog instead...
sigh~~~
i dont knw anymore....
is this the sign telling me to go hang out with some other gang...
or is this the sign telling me that i have a problem in maintaining frenship...
i know this sounds odd...
but seriously...
things are getting worse now.....
can anybody tell me whats going on..?

anyways....
about family.....
if you were close to me...
i think i;ve told you that something happened....
someone betrayed my dad....
i won tell you who...curz...they were very close to me....
dad said....
once a person grew up...their mind will change.....
family relationship might not be the main factor he or she been thinking about...
maybe i'm not grown up....
i dont think anything can change the relationship between me and my family...
even MONEY...
this is a very powerful thing....
ppl said..money cant but love....
but...money bought the heart of those ppl who used to close with us....
my dad started to worry about his own daughters....
i said to him...dont compare us with them....
we wont do anything to betray my own family...
how could i?

ppl tell me all the time...
'i wish i am you...no worries...no stress...just relax and happy ...'
i will answer them....
'i have to worry about why am i not worrying about anything...thats not normal....'

lastly...
i still love you guys...
A LOT!!!
xoxo
joanne~~